Shankaran Pillai -The BackBencher


SP sat on the last bench of his class. His place, SP’s place ,where SP sat and dreamt of all those things that no one from his class would ever think or dare to dream. It was some lecture going on. Lectures  bored every one, the weak students, the bright students, the bright students who acted weak and the weak students who acted bright. But here in this class all except SP were sitting erect with a fake expressions on their face  ‘ya, we are getting it!’ on their face. Lectures bored every single one. Lectures were for two reasons. One was to create boredom in ones life and the other was to brain wash individuals, but this lectures was more of  washing the student’s brains of all realities and trying to bring up fake and made up stories or hopes that people don’t want to be a part of, but pressures from families, friends made them do it. Those fake expressions never got washed away but their brains….ya definitely.

Monsoons had just arrived but not to the fullest. Some times it would be dry and sometimes HE would piss all over and make the whole place wet. HIS bladders could never be predicted. It could burst anytime. Some minutes ago he lost HIS pressure and it was wet everywhere. SP looked out of the window. He noticed some drops of  holy piss on the window bars  that did not oblige to drop down. They did not want to let go of the cold metal  bars. But those drops had to come down. GRAVITY always took them down. Like that rude and jealous  guru who could never see his students be better than him or dream bigger and better  than him. ‘GURU’TVAKARSHAN’(Gravity) as they call it in Sanskrit. Aakarshan(attraction) towards the guru could be dangerous. Its just like falling off a cliff and dying, even there gravity does its act. SP loved Sanskrit words. ‘GURUTVAKARSHAN’, From guru he came back down to earth, to his class.

He wished every one rose their heads up and take a view of nature, just  outside the window. But no they wouldn’t because their attendance could be in danger. SP imagined a dusky beautiful woman seducing him from the lawns of his college, “Come SP dear, come”. He could hear her saying softly. But SP couldn’t, his attendance would fall if he went out to the climate he fell for.

Mother nature in any form, different season, different times always entertains us. It depends upon us to look at her differently. When nature word arrives, most think of mountains, the valleys, the rain forests when nature word arrives in their mind. But nature is just outside the classroom window we just have to just look out of the window. The reason why we cant recognize her is because she is brutally assaulted by us and our forefathers, so accept her in whatever form she is, because we are the reason for her deformity.

There was a live orchestra going on outside. Nature’s orchestra. No music could beat nature’s music. And the great musicians have taken inspiration from nature, by feeling it. Not only musicians but also philosophers, writers, artists, scientists and astronomers. Actually there is no field that is not inspired  by nature. But most of nature’s children were interested to plug earphone into their ears rather then enjoy her sounds. Open your ears to her and jam with music being played around. Mother nature the conductor of her band and the birds, trees, high mountains and the low lying weeds, the fragrant flowers, the ignored stones, the animal kingdom all jamming together to create a meaning for existence. But in Her band its only we the humans who are the disobedient players who refrain ourselves from joining the jamming session. SP did not know weather people felt things like him, but surely from the expressions on their faces, he felt the obediently sitting mankind was being disobedient towards their conductor. Like a child being disobedient to his mother. But mother never minds and forgives. But when we go beyond the limit and don’t obey her she really gets pissed and then earthquakes, volcanic eruptions, tsunami happen. SP did not sleep last night. He was thinking about his life and his dreams and now he was left with red and tired eyes. But he enjoyed the tipsy feeling you get when you feel sleepy but refrain from sleeping. SP was drunk without taking a drink. But here there was no chance of taking a wink, because nature was at her best form today, tough she looked a bit ragged and assaulted she looked beautiful.

Many great and well known souls, be it revolutionaries, freedom fighters, film makers went to jail. It was in jail where a persons creative part is born. Be it Jaffer Panahi or Mahatma Gandhi or Che Guevera or the latest Aseem Trivedi. To seize some ones freedom instigates him more to do what he wants to do. The want for freedom brings out the real us. And freedom lovers were very scanty in this class room.

SP had a theory_

If freedom was the opposite of bondage or attachment. And Love was the opposite of attachment. Then freedom and love would be synonyms. And  attachment creates  fear.

So,    LOVE=FREEDOM=COURAGE         &       HATE=BONDAGE=FEAR

So you decide what you want.

SP felt like a prisoner, contemplating in the prison, like he was doing now. He was in a jail without bars, but with closed gates. It was indeed a unique prison where prisoners came in the morning and were left in the evening, but instead of running away they were forced to come back to the prison the next morning. Which prisoner when left free would come back to prison the next day. SP did. The rest of the class did. The students. And to survive in such prisons SARCASM was the only savior .

SP eagerly waiting for the bell to ring and his parole to begin, looked at the every ones face and gave them a smile with a nod.

Nature Our Teacher


The crows and dogs of the crematory caw and bark at mankind..
As an abandoned child born on earth i have in me many secrets to unwind..
The crows ask us why we have come back with out knowing d value of life..
Please lend the children some time to know them self or they will be forced to pick up the knife..
People not bothered about d drizzle in the sunshine..

Because they throw a deaf ear at reality whines

But they run around and hurry when it drizzles in the dark..
Because they busy in their money making lark..
Like the kid by rail track who throws abuse at helpless train commuters..
The Aghori laughs at me for senselessly imitating the others..
For those who think the solution for their problems is dope..
Go learn and come back because its erasing the line between your stomach and HOPES..
When i sit before the panel for my job interview..
And they ask me why my educational career went askew..
I will tell them that i risked my future..
To know myself and mother nature.

WE are the animals


The train had come to a halt. Shankaran Pillai woke up. The sudden jerk woke him up from his nap. He was on his way to a friends place, for a party. Seated near the window and irritated by long halt he looked out of the window. The reflection of sun rays from the rail track pierced his eyes. He took his eyes away from it, and sight fell on a Goat. The Goat was munching leaves in front of a shack. It was tied to a iron bar which was tall, erect and rusted. Just about a meter away from the Goat stood a ‘Lion’ carved out of cheap wood. The colours on the lion had faded away but it still had it ferocious look. The Goat looks at the ‘lion’ of wood and gives it an insecure look sarcastically, and goes back to munching his leaves and totally unaware that there are bigger animals than lion who will eat him someday..

WE are the bigger and ruthless animal.

Shankaran pillai’s train moves..”things are looking up” he thought.
A smile lits his face up,thinking of what will be served to him at the party.

The Illusions of an Amazing!


Its never easy to wage a lone war!

There is a stage that comes in everyone’s life when one is overtaken by his personal failures over his professional success. However the person tries to run away from his past, the past always catches up with him in the present and reminds of the unpleasant days that left a terrible impact on his life. One such person my friends have an image of; may not know in reality over the turmoil and the shares of trouble that has surpassed him. This is about a person who has generated an illusion into making people believe that he is amazing, and the history remained unchanged from then on, as nobody knew his struggle to keep up, all they knew was how amazing this guy could be or going to be.

Its true nobody has a perfect life and the whole life we spent in achieving something that is always close to perfect or in other terms a sense of recognition by the society or making it big in this world. This person i talk about was never so perfect from the beginning and always had a lack in certain departments, apart from a troubled childhood. What he found that he was a part of a second world which others had created for him. It seemed he suited the needs of that world and hence an illusion started generating in the minds of the people regarding his role in this world. Interestingly, despite his various shortcomings in certain areas; people thought that he is probably a guy who had the edge over the others. The best part was the encouraging word of mouth comment that he used to receive that made him believe that he was indeed amazing. But there was another angle to this thought, which in fact was the reality that; he was just another normal guy with nothing much extra-ordinary.

This is when Expectations barged in and upto some extent the scenario changed over a while. This generated haters for him and they looked down on him or started bringing up issues which might depress him. Now, it is a human tendency, you just cannot escape these untimely things, neither could he initially. Thus the struggle began. The world is always waiting for any person to fall, because when they fall the world gets a good laugh and they all feel better to see somebody who gets left behind. Well, practically speaking they aren’t wrong and in a way they will always take their own stand and think of themselves. Now the person who has fallen it is him/her who would think in terms of the-ways-of-the-world kind of philosophy. It is utterly depressing, and to tell the truth one shouldn’t waste time in thinking about those who hate them. Instead rise again and make sure, that the world will think twice before laughing at you. This person must have been real brave to go through that phase of his life, when dark clouds were all around him.

Don’t Ever Let your struggles give you away!

The most disturbing thing is to see expectations riding on somebody one by one. Personal failures extend to the certain expectations that family has on you, but sometimes you cannot live upto it, because as humans we are prone to committing a lot of mistakes unintentionally, but every time we do so various situations spring from them and it does get difficult handling them sometimes. Thus generating an illusion that people might still have about him that he is good no matter what. There has been times where he had certain expectations with his own self but couldn’t even meet them. He realized there was a need of generating an illusion, something which would keep the people around him busy in various ways and never would he let people in on his problems, his struggles or what angered him. Because even if the world knew, they like before won’t care much about it, in fact that would allow them to add to his woes.

But mostly he has been received as an able and potential person in everything he does, even though he may suck at certain things. He never believed in self-praise and tries to be modest today even after facing many failures and when people again turn up with new expectation.It is like he has been working his way towards the illusion of distinguishing himself from the others, but in reality might be something else. It did sting in the beginning to not be like everyone around and the ever-growing threat of misunderstandings all for a wrong cause and thus generating the image of what would eventually be the conclusion. Maybe things weren’t so tough as one thinks them to be, maybe some people take life too seriously. But one must start seeing the flipside of life and tell you what, this alone can warm anybody to a considerable amount.

So it just needs a belief in yourself to turn the tide of expectation and hence deliver. So to everyone whose expectations were broken by this person i talk of; intends to work towards restoring faith in the people and keeping that illusion alive, but by some means he wouldn’t want the illusion to survive at first place and on second thoughts, he wouldn’t let the burden of expectations influence him any more under any circumstances. The fact of the matter is to working on the departments where one lacks and hence fails to deliver, So the attempt must be thus to position oneself as a mirror to this illusion of an amazing and most importantly not to lose heart. This is how things are funny and nothing else, we are a part of this crazy world, Shahrukh Khan works for the brand called SRK, which is his funny way to remark his life story. Similarly he works for that so-called illusion that defines him as amazing! I Guess everyone should create an illusion and work towards making it real eventually. It is a nice way to enhance yourself!

And perhaps the person i have been talking right from word one, is none other than the creator of Mythbroakia, i am sure most would have guessed it from the start, but i am glad you all chose to Stay Mystified till the end! That’s the illusion i was talking about……..

To Be Continued……………….

Mark your Arrival in a Grand Way!

Aside

The clock ticks
the chapati is burning..
Smell of burnt food and fragrance of talcum powder.
A horrible cocktail in the air..
A busy and confused world we live in..
nothing more complex.. than the early morning preparations.

Like the folks before who saw the sunlight at the begning and the sunset in the end.
Working wives see the kitchen at the begning and end of the day.
No change.

Lyk the old folks
who listened to birds sing in the morning and evening..
The man listens to demands from his boss in the morning
and family in the evening.
No change.

Like the old folks who were taught to observe and feel..
The young minds are ordered to conform and study.
Their vast variant and vivid spectrum..
being cut into perfect bandwidths
enough to fit in the lot.

And the tiny ones loiter around the home..
having a good laugh at the rat race.
then somethng that breaks their laughter..

A hand from the back that will push them…
into the rat race.
Getting sucked into this vicious black wirlpool.

I won’t call it reality.
Reality is what we make.

What Is This ?

Aside

I was walking down the road
I saw josef k.
He came to me and said ‘How r u D?’
I said “i am ok.”
He put his hands on my shoulder like a friend
And pointed his finger at the dark road ahead.
‘Lets walk’ he said.
I agreed
He smiled while walking.
I was just like i was before i met him.
We walked and walked and did not talk.
I saw a child whacking the wall with a cane
The wall forgot to do its homework.
As we walked the road was getting darker and darker.
But we did not stop and continued to walk.. continued to walk.
It was like getting absorbed into a dark labyrinth.
My shoulder was free from touch.
It was so dark that i closed my eyes
Coz it felt the same when they were open
Then..

I hit a wall and realised that it was ME and not WE.
That bastard K!
Now where am I??

K & D

Definition of Religion


religion

Religion means the quest for divine truth which every culture and every individual round the world seeks. No conviction is more universal, no theory more fundamental than this: Life must have its origin in a divine spirit or source (GOD).

Belief in GOD: 

It is impossible to conceive of the universe without God. One cannot visualize life without Him as the creative cause. Even Russia which said once that God does not exist is now proclaiming Him as the Great God. The lowliest Russian peasant knows that he needs to look to the sky to discover that “heavens declare the glory of God“. As far back as we can glimpse into time and space, there are many paths up the mountain and many camps along those paths. Also there were camp guides and showers of the way. All are convinced that their path is the best. All are searching, speculating and finding the footprints of God. And always there is the summit beckoning.

The desire to worship:

The desire to worship lies deeply ingrained in the heart of every religious man. It defies opposition. It is bound to lead him in search of God. To many people in their times and in other lands, God has been symbolized in many ways. Some persons have thought of Him as a mountain to be climbed, a height to be reached, or a summit to be conquered. Sometimes he looks for God in his heart. He realizes the spirit of the divine within his own body(head and heart).

There is no doubt that God is there, that there is something higher and greater than ourselves. He is too great to be found except in our thoughts and spirits– in our soul!

Religion is the path which God likes humanity to cherish and follow. Religion of the world is like a circle- a circle that like truth, has no beginning and no end. We can visualize all denominational expression and types of arcs in the circle of truth. And the circle is so wide that no single man or a group can claim it. God would like and love every seeker on the circle but will not single out one individual, however strong, for any special favor.

God gives you plus marks on his circular flow if you do good deeds but minus marks if you do bad. He probably lets good and bad stay on the stage of the world of humans as he can neither impose good on every man nor bad. He gives sufficient autonomy to individuals to behave. Therefore the argument, in which some men indulge, that it is God who is responsible for our good actions as well as bad actions, does not hold good. If autonomy provided to humans for their behavior were not there, humans would cease to be humans, they would become animals or superman.

Among  followers of every faith one finds the mystical quality that hints at the divine presence. Only really religious people can have a kind of communion with God. When we become truly religious, a new era begins in our life. We find the world opening itself to view our good. Goodness brings a strange brightness on your face as well as glory of God sheds new light in your heart and soul.

When Albert Einstein realized what had been done with his basic equations on the conversion of mass into energy, he stood aghast. Aware that man now held the destruction of the world in his hands, he broadcast before death on the radio pleading with the United States and the Soviet Union to clear up their mutual fear and distrust. He pleaded with them to give up the arms race as it invited men to destroy one another. Nothing can save the world, he said, finally, except spiritual understanding.

Gaining spiritual understanding is the most important challenge for humans. To attain spiritual understanding we have to purify our minds and hearts of mutual jealousy and hatred and look to God with maximum respect. So far as the state of the world is concerned, God has allowed it to be made a close neighborhood. Incredible speed of travel, new media of instantaneous communication, the man’s ability to land on the moon, have drawn the citizens of the good earth into an intimacy, unique in the history of mankind.

There are no longer any strange lands around the globe, no frontiers- no uncharted areas or people. What men think and what men intend to do as well how men live, are no secret from God. And in this new and wonderful world, man’s quest for truth and his awareness of God have taken on a new dimension.

There is a growing conviction among thinking people that an era of peace and understanding is in the making. The basis of this new era must be ordained by the spiritual divine power, that is God. It needs to be built upon a renewed will to believe that faith can conquer fear, human goodwill ingrained in the heart of political powers that be, and the strength of human love for each other and for God, is going to save mankind from mutual destruction that Albert Einstein referred to at the time of his death.

It is a fact that religious minded people of the world are drawing closer together, they are also demanding to respect each other’s faith as sincerely as you respect your own. All of this makes it a time of immense challenge for all religions. We, the people of the world, joining together to demonstrate in deed the great principles of our prophets and religious leaders, effectively through personal dedication pray to God to keep peace and order in the whole world.

It is all a part of one big jigsaw puzzle!

It is all a part of one big jigsaw puzzle!